It’s funny to me how after all of these years of not seeing my mom that I see traces of her in the world around me. I haven’t seen my mom in nearly 5 years. I also have a hard time seeing how either my sister or myself look like her. But last night it was around midnight and Aimee and I were sitting in the living room talking and she had taken her glasses of and I could see in her eyes and nose and cheeks how much she looks like my mom. This morning it was gone and I couldn’t see it any more. The same happens occasionally when I am getting ready and I look in the mirror and catch a glimpse of my mother. But when I stop and really look I can’t see her in me any more. Aimee only lived with my mom for a little over 2 years in her entire life. I lived with her for about 8 years. Total. It just kind of plays with my head when I see glimpses of someone that we hardly know.

Mom and Me when I was 8. I moved to live with Dad and Aimee just a few days later.

Mom and me when I was 27. I went to visit her in Hawaii. I have only seen her once since then in 2005.

I have the most amazing cousins.

I’m here at work and having a kind of sort of lonely day. Trying to come up with new ways to meet people. I want to date but don’t know how. I don’t know where to go to meet people. I seem to be not mormon enough for the mormon boys yet too mormon for the non mormon boys. When really all I want is to meet someone and marry in the Temple and have a happy peaceful life.

Well in the middle of these lonely thoughts I get a text message from Lolo……

This totally made my day. I love them. They are funny and beautiful and 2 of the most caring girls I’ve ever met. I’m proud to call them cousin.

It’s been an interesting year so far. Lots of good things happening. Very little negative in my life right now. That’s how I like it. Really the biggest negative I’ve had is my bank of 4 years went under. It’s taken me about a month to get a new bank account. It’s difficult to do things like that when you work during bank hours. But I was able to get signed up with a new bank and have had a very positive experience doing so. Then there have been the amazing things that have happened this year. My niece Phoebe’s birth tops that list. There is nothing in this world that I love more then my nieces and nephew. I love being an aunt. A couple of days ago I got to have all three kids snuggling with me. Life doesn’t get any better then that.
I won a funny quote contest. I also won the coolest thing that anyone in our house has ever won. I won a PSP Go from work. Which is very cool in itself, but I was able to return it for a Wii and the newest Mario game. Which means the entire family can play. A good friend of mine that I’ve not seen in over two years will be moving back to town very soon. I am excited to have her back. Both for her friendship and to go to the Temple with. I feel very positive about this year. I claimed at the beginning of the year that this is the year that I will get married. I’m not currently dating. But I feel good in hoping for that goal to come true.